Love on a Skateboard and a Massive Tangle of Tangents

Once upon a time, if I had to hazard a guess, we'll say in 1991, I had a dream that I was skateboarding through the halls of my church growing up and went into the nursery, as I was so fond of doing in those days. Allow me to make an aside.

Babies make a lot of noise and babies like a lot of toys. As such, our church building had a room set far away from the chapel at the end of several zigzagging hallways located near the library (actually a materials center, but we let it dream big) and the clerk's office. In this room, various members of the congregation would watch any kid under three while the rest of us were getting edified according to our age group. My guess is that keeping a baby from screaming is just as holy an act as learning about our Lord and Savior, and thus, it was considered fair to leave some church-goers with the screaming tiny masses. To help combat the cacophony of crying, they had cabinets full of toys for the children. I loved the nursery because even at the age of nine, I still loved playing with any and all toys. G.I. Joes? Yup. Ninja Turtles? Yup. Five large, multicolored plastic rings that stacked neatly on a large plastic cylinder creating a sort of rounded pyramid shape if you sorted them by size? Yup. Even that little phone on a string with the wheels and the eyes that would look around as you pulled it, the whole while a little bell hidden somewhere in its plastic body went "ding, ding, ding" all the way home.

In said dream I rode this skateboard--far better than ever I rode it in real life, mind you--into the nursery, presumably to play with toys. And toys were there, to be sure. As were other children playing away. However, also in this room stood a girl the likes of whom I'd never seen. She was attractive, my age, and had a name that I think started with a K. Instantly, I was Mr. Too Cool for School. I did tricks on the skateboard to show off--again, tricks I wouldn't even attempt in the waking world, I told her I was just hear to make sure the kids didn't hurt themselves playing with the toys, unless of course, she wanted to play with them too, which was cool by me. I was a cool, understanding cat who was open to all kinds of experiences. Most important, upon waking, I remembered I told her I was ten.

I was convinced this dream was prophetic. In scripture study, it seemed every dream anyone ever had was prophetic. Why shouldn't mine be?

For the next year, after every church meeting I would hang out in the nursery, convinced that eventually she would come. Was she there at night? During the day? I couldn't remember. My only hope was to maintain a near constant presence if ever I wanted to meet my destined lady love.* Logic should have told me the dream would never come true. I never brought my skateboard to church. I would certainly never be allowed to ride it through what, at the time, felt like labyrinthine corridors of the church hall. Also, I never practiced doing anything on my skateboard except going forward in a straight line and falling down. I especially spent a lot of time practicing falling down, it seems. I would NEVER be able to do anything remotely resembling the tricks I did in the dream.

Still, I was convinced that one day I would go to church and there would be a skateboard lying there in the parking lot, eagerly waiting for me to set my feet to it and do ollies in the hallways so that I might impress Kristen or Katrina or Karoline or whatever her name was. Fueled by a force much greater than myself, my feet, my legs, my body would instinctively know what to do to perform a kickflip, a handstand, an ollie, and some weird thing I'd never seen before, but it involved spinning and the windowsill two feet off the ground.

Age ten came and went. No Kathrine or Karen or Karlita. I convinced myself that I had misheard myself in the dream, that I said I was eleven in the dream. Maybe even twelve! Goodness, I had two whole more years in which she might show up and whisk me away to relationship bliss!

Eleven came and went, and twelve followed suit. Every week found me waiting for her, waiting for that skateboard and that talent to miraculously arrive. The weeks passed. Weeks in which I could have spent playing in the "cultural hall," trying to jump high enough to reach the top of the padded wall panels, playing on the stage or scaling the basketball hoops.

But she never did show up. And I never did become the awesome skateboard virtuoso I was meant to be. I did, at least, stop hanging out in the nursery.

*Ever since I was old enough to understand that there were two genders, I've been a sucker for love. My first crush was my first day in kindergarten. I carried that crush for seven years. Yes, I realize that time frame overlaps with the story above. No, it never occurred to Little Me that I was being unfaithful to a secret, imagined relationship with a real person by longing for this completely imaginary individual.